Chapter 3- My Minds Made Up/ Part 1

Buzz, buzz, buzz, buzzzzzz. Nicki’s phone had been going off for the past 5 minutes and it was really starting to irritate her. It woke her up out of her sleep and she was trying to ignore it but it never seemed to stop. “who the fuck is it and why won’t they get the hint” she mumbled to herself. She reached over, grabbed her phone and without looking answered.

“Hello?” Nicki said.

“Nicki?” It was a familiar voice but she wasn’t quite sure.

“Drake? ” Nicki said confused hoping it wasn't who she thought it was.

“Please Nicki just hear me out. I’m sorry that I hurt you; I didn't think about what I was doing. I love and I need you and I would never hurt you intentionally baby.”

Nicki was so struck. She couldn’t believe this nigga was really calling asking for her back. She laughed out of confusion and took a deep breath.

“Drake, I don’t think you understand that not only did you hurt me physically but also emotionally. You accused me of something that I was never doing, and you didn’t even check on me after you pushed me the fuck down. Now, maybe it’s just me, but that’s the most disrespectful shit I have ever encountered and it was intentional.” Nicki was heated at this point. “Then you have the audacity to call me apologizing asking for me back?? It doesn’t work like that. So just do me a favor and stay the fuck out of my life.”

“Who the hell do you think you’re talking to?” Drake said.

“Excuse me?”

“Who the hell do you think you’re talking too?” He repeated, “Have you lost your mind? You have no right to talk to me that way, I gave you every fucking thing and you think we’re just going to be over like that? I fucking own you! If it wasn’t for me you would still be stuck on that other nigga that fucked you over so it really shouldn’t be me calling and apologizing it should be YOU. I should have pushed you a little harder and maybe that table would have knocked some sense into you”

Nicki could not believe what she was hearing. He was really starting to turn into a lunatic. She hung up the phone, turned it on silent and placed it back on her night stand. Tomorrow she would have SB change her number so she wouldn’t have to deal with the insanity from Drake if he continued to call. She laid down and tried to fall back to sleep but the thoughts that were circulating through her mind wouldn’t let her. She was afraid that Drake would try to hurt her again. At this point she wasn’t sure what he was capable of and honestly she didn’t want to find out. She rolled over and looked at the clock that read 3:08 a.m. and this was always around the time when SB got up to use the bathroom. She didn’t feel comfortable sleeping by herself just yet and that’s probably why it was hard for her to fall asleep. SB had decided that it was best that they sleep in their own rooms from now on until they figured out where they stood with each other. He felt like them sleeping in the same bed confused things and made it difficult for her to get her emotions together.

She got out of the bed and headed down the hall to Safaree’s room. She didn’t want to sleep alone and felt like SB would understand. She knocked on his door but didn’t get an answer. She opened the door and walked over to his bed slowly. She looked at him spread out over the whole bed and put her hands on her hips.

“Why this nigga gotta be all over the damn bed like this?”

She found a spot on the other side that was just enough space for her to get in the bed and lay down. She pulled the cover up and crawled in trying not to wake SB.  She covered herself up, and moved back to where her leg was touching his. She never understood why she did that but she just always had to have some sort of skin to skin contact with him if they were in the same bed. She was soon fast asleep.

SB woke up a couple minutes later to a swift of cold air hitting his chest. He realized the covers were all pulled over to the other side of his bed and knew Nicki was in his bed. “She so damn stingy” he shook his head and headed to the bathroom. When he came back out Nicki was lying in the middle of the bed with her feet on his side of the bed. He scooped her up in his arms and carried her to her bed. He placed her in the bed and started walking towards the door.

“Faree don’t leave me please!”

“Nic go back to sleep, you’ll be ok, I’m just down the hall”

“No it’s not the same please! I’m scared to be alone”

“What are you afraid of?” SB asked?

Nicki knew she should have told him about the phone call she received earlier but she didn’t want to get him worked up or yell at her for answering the phone.

“Idk, I just don’t want to be alone, can you please come lay with me”

“Ok Nicki, I just want you comfortable”

“Thank you” Nicki said smiling

SB climbed in the bed and they both fell fast asleep.

2 weeks Later……

Nicki had been doing some hard thinking about the conversation her and SB had. But she needed some more advice from someone who could understand what she was going through, so she decided to call Lauren. She called but she didn’t get no answer so she called Candi.

Candi: Hey Doll!!!!!!

Nicki: Hey babe, whatcha doinnnnng?

Candi: Nothing just sitting here tryna fix my hair, what you up too diva?? I haven't heard from you since you changed your number.

Nicki: I know, and nothing much, just been relaxing and getting ready for the next album. I haven’t talked to you in a while so I thought that I should fill you in.

Candi: fill me in on what? Spill!!!!!!

Every time Nicki called Candi and told her she had to “fill her in” it was always something serious. Nicki took a deep breath and told Candi about the incident with Drake in the kitchen and how SB almost killed him. She told her about what SB said to her when he heard her crying and she also told her about the phone call she received from him the other night.

Candi: Seriously Nic you know if you want his ass duffed we can call up the fucking crew and they will leave his ass lifeless in the middle of Queens.

Nicki: I think SB took care of it already. And you know if we call them Muthafuckas Drake will be dead within seconds and I don’t want to be the cause of someone’s death.

Candi: Oh, so its ok for him to almost be the cause of your death but you can’t return the favor? really Nicki? Come on that ain’t fair.

Nicki: You are too much. But I’m not done there’s something else I need to tell you.

Candi: Awe shit! What else did Drakes gazelle looking ass do.?

Nicki: It’s not about him silly. It’s about SB.

Candi: Ok? What about him.

Nicki: we kind of….uhm….had a little kissing session a couple of weeks ago after the incident.

Candi: KISSING SESSION??? With SB? Wait are we talking about the same SB? Or did you meet someone else with the same name?

Nicki: Yes we are talking about SB! My Hype man and my Best friend.

Candi: Woahhhhhh? Well how was it.?

Nicki suddenly got hit with a burst of happiness when Candi asked her that question.

Nicki: I loved it. It wasn’t that long though because he pulled away saying that I was confused and that he didn’t want to take advantage of me at such a vulnerable time so he stopped.

Candi: Now I know we not talking about the same SB. Because the SB I know would have jumped all in that pussy. You know that nigga a man whore! Not to mention him being in love with you.

Nicki: CANDI SHUT UP!!! And wait, wait? What you mean in love with me?

Candi: Nicki if you haven’t noticed by now that SB is in love with you then you must have been in the same retarded ass class that Rocsi (106&Park) was in. The way he looks at you, the way he protects you, the way he treats you and the things he buys you are not normal things you do for a “Best friend”. Lauren and I are his best friends too and while you get treated like the damn queen  we get treated like peasants when we’re all together.

Nicki: I just thought that was because he’s around me more than he is with you guys. I never thought It was more than that. But if you and Lauren knew how come no one told me?

Candi: because you’re rude ass would have laughed and told us to sit our asses down.

Nicki: Then how come he never told me how he felt?

Candi: Because he was afraid you wouldn’t look at him the same and he didn’t want to be hurt if you didn’t. He values your friendship more than anything, so he let it go. We told him that if it got to the point where he couldn’t hide his feelings anymore and it felt like his feelings were becoming stronger then he should tell you.

Nicki: Wait? Yawl ugly asses were having conversations about me with him about this?

Candi: YES! He is me and Laurens best friend too, and he needed someone to talk to so he came to us and we told him to do what he thought was best.

Nicki: So what do you think I should do?

Candi: Imma tell you the same thing me and Ren (Lauren) told SB. Do what you feel is best. I know you love him and I know he loves you. If you feel like you and his friendship can go further than “best friends” then give it a shot. Just keep in mind it might never be the same between the two of you if it doesn’t work.

Nicki: and that’s what I’m afraid of Cand. I don’t want to lose him in any way at all. I would go crazy and lose my mind.

Candi: Answer me these questions. Do you love him?

Nicki: Yes! Of course.

Candi: Who’s the first person you think about when you wake up?

Nicki: Safaree

Candi: Whenever yur feeling sad and down, who cheers you up?

Nicki: Safaree

Candi: When your bitching and nagging and everyone leaves, who stays behind to make sure your alright?

Nicki: Safaree!! Ok! I get it!

Candi: I’m not done. Last question; Are you in love with him?

Nicki went silent, and there was a long pause.

Candi: Hello????

Nicki: I’m here.

Candi: well………..

Nicki: I don’t know Candi.

Candi: well I want you to sit and think about that first and then get back to me. When you figure out your answer that should tell you whether to be with the man you love or keep it as “best friends”, I have to go, but let me know what you come up with.

Nicki: ok Thanks for everything. I love you

Candi: Love you too

Nicki put her phone down and sat there staring at the bed, thinking about what Candi asked her. “Are you in Love with Safaree” , is all that played back in her head. But Candi was right. Whenever she woke up he was the first one on her mind and the last one when she fell asleep, even when she was dating someone. Whenever she was down and sad SB was right there to pick her up. When she needed to talk she would go to him. Whenever she was in a situation he made sure she didn’t have to go through it alone. He loved her and didn’t have a problem with showing it. He never disrespected her or made her feel uncomfortable in any situation. He would lay down his life for her and she would do the same for him.  She couldn’t see herself with anyone else, which is why her past relationships probably never worked out. But now she knew why. Not only did she love Safaree but she was IN love with him, and didn’t want another second to go by without him knowing.

Nicki picked up her phone and texted Candi:

NickiMouse: IM IN LOVE WITH SAFAREE!!

Candi heard her phone buzz and saw she had a text from Nicki. She smiled.

RideOrDie: It’s about time. Now you know what you have to do right?

NickiMouse: Yes!

RideOrDie: THEN GO GET YOUR MAN!

NickiMouse: ;) *kisses*

Nicki jumped up and ran down the hall to SB’s room, but he wasn’t there. She ran down the steps into the living room and kitchen but still no SB. “Where the hell is he”? 

TO BE CONTINUED................................................................

So tell me what you guys think, i should be posting part 2 sometime later on today, so dont spazz the fck out too much. I know I almost lost some of my readers due to the Cinnamon Challenge. Smh. Yall all almost died (moment of silence) any way------> COMMENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!