I Can Trust You

I Dont know why it took me so damn long to write this chapter but here it is. @PinkMunyBarbie and @ItsMarthaBitch probably gone be mad cause its not as long as they probably want...but *shrugs* Enjoy...




"Baby please just listen to what I have to say!" Nicki said.


Nicki had been trying to talk to SB every since they got home. When Drake told him that she was the one who actually called him to apologize, he was completely hurt. Nicki didn't understand how Safaree could believe anything Drake had to say, especially after he seen how mad Drake had become after he called her "Baby". SB didn't have anything to say. The whole ride home from the Jewelry store was completely quiet, except the sniffing that was coming from Nicki who had been crying. When they got home Safaree had went straight up the steps and into his room. Nicki had been trying for the past 20 minutes to get him to open the door so that she could talk to him.


"Nicki just go to your room and just leave me alone, I really don't wanna hear anything  you have to say", Safaree said in a soft voice, but loud enough so that Nicki could hear him.
"Why are you treating me this way? I need you to talk to me", Nicki said through her tears. "If you talk to me I can tell you the truth of what really happened, but I can't do that if I leave you alone." Nicki didn't hear any movement going on in his room nor did she hear him say anything. She dropped her head and slowly walked to her room. She didn't know what she could do to get him to talk to her, so she gave up. She laid down in her bed and thought back to the night Drake called. "Why didn't I just tell him". 
Safaree was sitting on the edge of his bed trying to figure out what was going on. Everything just happened so  fast that he couldn't understand it. He didn't hear Nicki at his door anymore and figured she finally gave up. He knew she was crying and honestly he didn't want that. She had been crying every since she begged him to leave the store and wasn't making it any better by shutting her out. He got up, opened his door and headed for Nicki's room. When he got to her door he could hear her small cries. He opened the door and walked over to the chair in her room and sat down. 




"Nicki?" Safaree said, watching her pop her head up and turn towards him. 
"Faree, when did you get in here?"
"It doesn't matter. I wanna know what happened"
"Ok." Nicki wiped the tears from her face and took a deep breath. 
"The night that I came into your room and got in your bed was the night he called. I never look at my screen when I answered it because I was annoyed that who ever it was just kept calling for about 5 minutes straight. I answered the phone and Drake just went on and on about him being sorry and how he didn't mean to hurt me. I told him that nothing he said mattered and to just stay out of my life. Well.....he didn't like that. He told me  that he really shouldn't be calling me apologizing and that if anyone should be apologizing it should be me. He said that he owned me and that he should have pushed me a little harder onto the table and maybe that would have knocked some sense into me. I got really scared and hung up the phone and thats when I went to your room." 
Safaree looked at Nicki and could see that she was trying so hard not cry.
"Come here" Safaree said. Nicki got off of the bed and walked over to SB. He pulled her on top of his lap and pulled her into his arms. "So is that why you wanted to change your number?"Nicki shook her head yes. "Why didn't you just tell me when it happened baby?"
"Because I was scared Safaree, I've seen you mad before and I didn't want to get you worked up and upset at 3 something in the morning. I figured that it would go away. I just wanted to forget about him and anything that was associated with him."
"So he really did call you didn't he?" SB asked.
"Yes"
"Why didn't you say something after he said that you called him? By you being quiet, it made me think that it was true because you wasn't trying to deny it."
"I was in shock baby. I couldn't believe that he would just blatenly lie like that, and actually think it was ok.But...im sorry thatI kept it from you."
"Yeah babe you can't keep things like that away from me, and that was something that I needed to know. I just want you to be able to tell me anything besides of how you think Im going to react, you should be able to come to me."
Nicki was listening to everything safaree was telling her. He was right. She shouldn't be keeping anything from him, big or small. 
"Ok baby, i promise to never keep anything from you. I don't want us to have to pull teeth to be able to get information out of each other. I want it to be natural, so when ever we need to tell each other something, no matter how serious, we won't hesitate", Nicki said.
She leaned  in and kissed his lips. She pulled back and gave him the prettiest smile he had ever seen. 
"So is there anything that you need to tell me?", Nicki asked.
"No baby, and if there is i won't think twice about telling you."
Nicki was about to kiss Safaree again when the ringing of her phone interrupted. She got up and went to get her phone off of the bed to see who it was. It was Candi.
"Hello" Nicki said.
"Hey Nicky Mouse I have a question"
"Ok whats up?"
"Have you talked to Lauren lately?", Candi asked.
"No I haven't. Come to think of it the last time I talked to her was at the get together we all had" 
"Well I'm kind of worried about her, she hasn't reached out to any of us and that isn't like her, maybe something is wrong."
"I think that if something was wrong she would have contacted us",Nicki said.
"Well has SB talked to her",Candi asked.
Nicki turned to Safaree and saw that he was falling asleep in the chair.
"Safaree have you talked to Lauren lately?"
"No", Safaree said.
"No he hasn't spoken to her either Cand"
"Well I think imma go over there and see if she's ok.", Candi said.
"Ok call me and let me know whats going on when you get there",Nicki said.
"Alright"
"Bye"
Nicki walked over to Safaree and kissed him on his cheek.
"Baby come lay down with me" Nicki said.
Safaree got up, walked to the bed with Nicki and climbed in. They cuddled up and both fell asleep.
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Lauren's House 




Candi had just pulled up to Laurens house, hoping that everything was alright. She dug in her pocketbook for her phone to try and call Lauren one more time, but noticed she left her phone at home. She got out of the car and walked to her front door. She knocked once but didn't get an answer. When she went to knock again Lauren opened the door.


"What are you doing here?",Laren asked. 
"Uhm I came to check on you, I have been trying to reach you for weeks now", Candi said.
"Well as you can see im fine, now can you leave please?" 
"No im not going any where until we talk, whether you like it or not." Candi brushed past Lauren into the house and sat on the couch. 
Candi noticed that the house was rather junky and smelled pretty bad.


"Ughhh what died in here?? Shit it smell like seaweed and fucking pork skins" Candi said covering her nose.
Lauren crossed her arms and gave Candi the death stare. Candi noticed that Laurens eyes were bloodshot red, her hair wasn't done and she looked like she had just got in to a brawl with 5 pitbulls.
"Lauren whats going on with you?" Candi asked.
"Nothing Candi please do not start with the 21 questions, im not in the mood and I really don't feel like talking to anyone." Lauren had been in the house for a little over a month.No one had heard from her and she didn't try to contact anybody to let them know she was ok. 
"Look I don't care if your in the mood or not. And im not just anybody im your BEST friend, and im worried. This isn't like you so  I know something is wrong now TELL ME!" 
Candi was frustrated that Lauren was trying to get her to leave and not talk. She had never seen Lauren like this and honestly it was scaring her.
"NOTHING IS WRONG NOW LEAVE!!!!!!!", Lauren screamed.
"NO, IM NOT GOING NO WHERE TILL YOU TELL ME WHAT THE FUCK IS UP WITH YOU."
Lauren ran upstairs to the bathroom and ran back down.
"You wanna know whats wrong with me, you really wanna know?"
"YES I DO, THATS WHY IM FUCKING ASKING", Candi said.
"THIS IS WHATS WRONG WITH ME" Lauren slammed down the pregnacy test on the table that was in front of Candi. Lauren began to cry just looking at the stick.
"OH MY GOD YOUR PREGNANT!!!"
"I was....", Lauren said in a low tone.
"Was?? What do you mean was?"
"I-I......"
"You had a miscarraige?", Candi asked. 
Lauren dropped to her knees and her sobs became uncontrollable.
"I just wasn't ready for a baby Candi. I wasn't ready to be a mom and I didn't want to bring a baby in this world and it be abondoned by its own mother!", Lauren said. Candi looked at her confused. She had no idea what lauren was talking about.
"Wait, Lauren what are you saying?"
"I HAD AN ABORTION", Lauren screamed. Candi's eyes grew wide.
"You what??", Candi asked.
"You heard me"
"When? And why didn't you tell me?"
"About a month and a half ago, and I didn't tell you because I dont want people to know that I killed  my child."
Candi walked over to Lauren and pulled her into her arms.
"Sweety you cannot beat yourself up over this. Now you know im not for abortions but this was your decision. You did what you thought was best for you, you cant allow yourself you constantly block out your whole life because of this one mistake.
"I know but it just hurts so bad and I feel so guilty", lauren said.
"I know it hurts but you'll be ok. I just wish you would have said something to me cause you know I would have been there for you."
"I was ok"
"Apparentley you wasn't okay. Who was the father?" Candi asked.
Lauren sat up and wiped her face, she thought about what she was about to say and began to mess with her fingers.
"Uhhmm it was a guy at the get together we went to" Lauren said.
"At Nicki's House?"
"Yeah", she replied.
"Who? What was his name?"
"I dont know, we were drunk and when we were finished he uhh just left."
"So you don't know who you slept with? And HE doesn't know that you were pregnant?" Candi asked.
"No and no", she lied.
"Well I sure as hell hope this didn't happen in Nicki or Safaree's room. Do you at least remember where yall had sex?"
"We uhh ....were in the guest room" she said quickly.
"Well its over now,and I really want my friend back and so does everyone else. I miss you and I dont like to see you hurt." 
Candi could tell that Lauren wasn't telling her something. Lauren would always look down and play with her fingers when she was hiding something. But Candi wasn't going to ask her about it. She was going to find out on her own.
"Thank you for coming to check on me, even though I still feel like shit, I feel better then what i felt before."Lauren said.
"No problem babe, im gonna go now. I want you to try and clean up some and even try showering", they both laughed.
"Ok, I think Im gonna do that." Lauren said.


Candi hugged lauren and told her how much she loved her. 
"Call me if you need anything", Candi said. She walked out of the house and got into her car. She waved goodbye to Lauren as she drove off. 
Lauren turned around back into the house and closed the door. She was relieved that she talked to someone and got most of the guilt off of her chest. Suddenly Lauren realized that she didn't tell Candi not to say anything to anybody, but remembered that Candi would  never tell anyones business no matter who it was. And even though Safaree and Nicki were her bestfriends too, she didn't even want them to know. 
Little did she know thats exactly where Candi was headed.



***********gets ready for the slander* COMMENT !!!!!!!!***************************

The Lies are always Believed first

2 days Later......

SAFAREE GET UP!!!! NOW!!!!! , Nicki screamed for the third time trying to get him up and out the bed. She had tried waking him up before she showered but all he did was make some weird ass sound and turn over and go back to sleep. 


"Why do you have to yell at me? I can hear you fine when you just talk to me regular" 
"Yeah right nigga, You wouldn't hear a damn war going on outside if it happened, now get up we have to go", Nicki pulled the covers off of him exposing his sexy body that made her wanna jump on him every time she seen it. "And hurry up and put some clothes on you turning me the fuck on", Nicki said as she walked out of the room. 


She had been cooped up in the house for the past month now. She was finally ready and comfortable with leaving the house. she felt like nothing would happen to her while she was with Safaree and she was absolutely right. She decided that since he was being a sweet heart to her for that past few weeks that she would get him something special.So she told him that she would take him to the finest Jewelry Store in the area so he could pick out anything he wanted. SB always spoiled her and she wanted to make sure he felt like he could be spoiled by her as well. 
Safaree had finally come downstairs ready to go and found Nicki standing at the door with her arms crossed  looking like she had been standing there all damn morning. 


"Nicki why you standing there looking at me like I burned all ya damn wigs", Safaree asked walking pass her and reaching for his jacket. 
"Cause i been up for almost 4 hours waiting for ya ass to get the hell up and get dressed."
"Nic your acting like the Jewelry store is going to run away if we don't get there within a certain time, now you see how I feel when im waiting 789 hours for you to get dressed", Safaree said walking up to her face.
"Whatever", she said.
"Mhmm yeah whatever", he said bending down and kissing her before they walked out of the door. 


They got into the car and drove for about 35 minutes before they were finally in the area of the Jewelry Store. 
"So do you think you might know what you want to get?"
"No but ill probably look around first to see the type of clarity that they working with first before I make any decisions", SB said looking at Nicki who now had a questioning look on her face. 
"What you tryna say? That Imma take you to some shitty ass Jeweler thats gonna try and sell us some foggy ass Jewelry? How long have you known me again?" 
"Nic i know you wouldn;t do that but some nigga's be having some ugly shit, and on top of that I don't want anything imma see somebody else rocking."SB said.
"Well yeah, that makes sense."


They pulled up in front of the Jewelry store and SB climbed out to walk around and help Nicki out. 
"Thank you baby"
"No problem Beautiful", they walked into the Jewelry store and were surprised that there wasn't really anybody in there except three woman, and two men sitting in the corner, who looked like they were negotiating something. As soon as they walked in something immediately caught SB's attention. He ran over to the case that had chains in it and was smiling like a kid on christmas.
"Look at this shit Nic, I never seen anything like this, LOOK AT THOSE DIAMONDS!!!" SB, was too excited for his own life.Nicki was standing behind him bent over laughing so hard. She couldn't believe he was acting like he had never seen nothing like this before. 


"NICKI DO YO SEE THIS SHIT??" She had never seen him so excited about a piece of jewelry. 
"I take it you want that one huh?", Nicki said cracking up. She turned and tried to go find smebody that worked there to ask them for help. She had already found it kind of rude that when they walked in they weren't properly greeted. She seen a lady standing far off behind the counter and called out for her. 
"Excuse me Miss?", Nicki said making her self noticed.
 When she called out for assistance one of the guys that was sitting in the corner suddenly turned in Nicki's direction. The swift move of his head got Nicki's full attention and she immediately ran towards SB. 


"Baby we need to go NOW!" she said quickly.
"But i didn......" 
"Ill call and tell them to package it and send it to our home, now PLEASE can we go?" Safaree was a little uneasy about what was making Nicki act this way. He bucked up immediately and his voice became stern. He grabbed her face and looked her in her eyes.
"WHATS WRONG BABY"? He knew it was something serious because her eyes began to water.
"Nicki!?" A familiar voice said causing SB to look up. Nicki never turned around when her name was called, she looked up and saw the frustration, anger and disgust that was in her mans eyes. She was afraid of what he was about to do.
"What part of the ass beating didn't you understand Drake? The part where i told you to not say SHIT to her if you seen her or the part where I told you to stay away from her?", SB said walking towards Drake. Drake stopped in his tracks and knew what he just did was a huge mistake. But that didn't stop him from saying what he had to say.
"Look Safaree, I dont want no problems with you, the problems me and Nicki are going through has nothing to do with you so...."
"THERE IS NO YOU AND NICKI!",SB said cutting Drake off. "AND WHAT THE FUCK YOU MEAN IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH ME. IT BECAME ABOUT ME THE MOMENT YOU PUT YA FUCKING HANDS ON HER. YOUR A FUCKING COWARD AND I SHOULD KILL YOU RIGHT NOW", Safaree was livid. 
"Baby please lets just go home he's not worth it and I don't want to be around him", Nicki was hysterical. One side of her was terrified of Drake and the other side of her was confident that SB wouldn't let him touch her.
"Nah baby I got you, he ain't gone touch you", SB said giving Drake the deadliest  look ever.
"BABY??", Drake questioned. So yu were fucking this nigga. I fucking knew it. And you were steady trying to convince me that you weren't when we talked 2 weeks ago. 
Safaree turned and looked at Nicki who was just standing there with a blank look on her face. She looked at SB and knew she was now in some deep shit.
"Baby I can explain",nicki cried.
"Explain WHAT? The fact that yu have been talking to this muthafucka behind my back.?"
"NO Faree it was 1 time and he called me trying to apologize but I wasn't trying to hear it." Nicki was hysterical. She didn't know what was running through Safaree's mind.
"ONLY 1 TIME?? 1 TIME TOO FUCKING MANY" SB, yelled.
"Please don't yell at me Faree." Nicki was shaking and crying uncontrollably. SB turned to Drake and walked up to his face.
"And didn't I say don't fucking call her? And what the fuck makes you think an apology was going to work?'
Drake looked back at Nicki and saw that she was crying and really looked upset because Safaree was mad at her.
"I wasn't the one who called her apologizing." Drake looked at Nicki and saw the confusion in her eyes which led him to believe she knew exactly what he was about to do.
"What are you talking about?", Safaree said confused. Nicki couldn't believe what he was about to say. But somehow she knew it was comming. Drake gave SB a smirk and laughed in his face. He walked towards the door and opened it. He looked back at Nicki, then to SB and said:


"She called me!" 

*********** I left yall on another cliff huh? Welp........I DONT CAREEE........Ill post later on, depending on how mad yall are....soooo*****************************

Interlude

Ok so this is going to probably piss each and everyone of you off but I DON'T GIVE DAMN. There will be no names in this story for a particular reason, so DEAL. Have fun.>>>>>>>>>

She looked at the stick that she held in her hand that read pregnant. She couldn’t believe what she was looking at, and the only thing she could do was break down in tears. She wasn’t ready to have a baby and didn't have any plans on keeping it. She also knew that HE wouldn't let her get an abortion but she still had to do something about it.

                She stared at her phone through her tears and debated if she should call him or not. She felt like he had a right to know about his child and decided to call him.

“Yo” a voice said coming through her phone.

“He-hey” she was trying to control herself so that he wouldn't hear that she was crying.

“Whats up?

”Nothing. But uhm… I have something I need to tell you” she said very low. She was scared to tell him because deep down she knew she didn’t want this baby, but she knew he wasn’t going to let her get rid of it.

“Ok, whats going on?”

“ Im pregnant”

“WHAT?” he yelled.

“I said im pregn….”

“I heard you”, he cut her off. “Ok, I didn’t mean to yell that just caught me off guard. But we’ll just work through this together”, he said.

“Im not ready to have a baby though”

“So what are you trying to say, you want to get an abortion?”

She was silent.

“Nah Fuck that. Not my baby.”

“But what are we going to tell everybody.”

“I’m not worried about them; I’m worried about you and my child now, I don't give a fuck about what their going to think.”

“But what we did was a mistake, we’re not even together and neither one of us meant for this to happen.”

“So what! That baby that is growing inside of you belongs to me just as much as it belongs to you. And I’ll be damned if I let you abort it.” He was becoming more and more frustrated at her trying to convince him to let her abort it. “Now if your still not ready to be a mother when the baby gets here then I’ll take care of my baby, and you won’t have to have no part in raising it.”

“But…”

“But nothing”, he cut her off again. “Now I have to go. Keep me updated on everything.” He hung and she dropped to her knees and just let the tears flow down her face.

                She slid down the wall and knew she wasn’t ready to be a mother and he wasn't ready to be a father. Between his life and her life there wouldn’t be no stability for the baby. She got up and walked over to her bookshelf and looked for her phone book. When she found it, she looked through it for the nearest clinic. She found the number and called.

“Hopewell General Clinic, how may I help you?”

“Hi i-im calling to schedule an Anonymous Abortion”, she said swallowing her cries.

“Ok, and when would you like to come in?”

“As soon as possible”

“Will tomorrow at 12p.m be convenient for you?”  The Receptionist asked.

“Yes that’s fine ma’am” her tears were becoming very hard to control.

“Ok well you might want to get here at about 11:30a.m so that you can get the paper work out of the way ok?”

“Ok”

“Thank you for calling, we’ll see you tomorrow.”

“Thank you”, she hung up the phone and crawled in her bed feeling horrible for what she was about to do. She laid there for hours until she cried herself to sleep.

1 Day after the Abortion

She woke up feeling light headed and in pain. She had been crying non-stop since the day she called and scheduled the procedure. What really scared her was what she was going to tell HIM! She had thought long and hard and decided to tell him she had a miscarriage yesterday and that she got checked out and everything was fine.

She picked up the phone and dialed his number.

“Hey, what’s up”, he said.

“Hey”, she said lowly almost a whisper.

“How are you?”

“I’m ok, I’m in a little pain though”

“Why whats wrong, is everything ok?”, he asked sounding very concerned. That hurt her even more.

“No not really? I had a miscarriage yesterday morning.”

“Are you serious?”, his voice got low and she could hear the hurt in his voice.

“Yes. When I woke up and went to use the bathroom I saw blood in my underwear, and I knew it wasn't my period. So I went to the hospital and they told me that I miscarried. I waited until today to call you because I had to go get myself together. I was a wreck yesterday.”

“I’m sorry you had to go through that alone and if you need me I’m here for you”, his voice was cracking and she could tell he was trying to hold back his tears.

“Let’s just not ever talk about this; I want to let it go. It’s over and gone and I don’t want to think about it, it hurts too much.”

“ I understand, but still if you need anything I’m here, just call me ok?”

“Ok”, she said.

“Talk to you later”

“Bye”

She hung up the phone and let out screams. She felt so guilty lying to him but she couldn't tell him she had an abortion. She knew he was holding back from letting her hear him cry because she could hear it in his voice. Not only was she hurting herself but she was also hurting him now and she didn’t even think about how he might feel in the end. She would keep this to herself and make sure that no one ever found out about what she did. She never thought in a million years that she would do something like what she had done. But here it was, and it was real.

*files nails* so, do yall wanna know who its is? Do yall think yall know who it is ? *shrugs* whatever. Let me know what yall think and i'll think about posting later. I haven't had shit to do all week which is why I'm posting so much, but i like the feed back and if it continues then so will I but if not.........................

Chapter 3-My Minds Made Up/Part 2

Nicki was confused. It was close to 5:30p.m and Safaree still wasn’t home. She tried calling him on his cell phone earlier but soon realized he left it on the table next to the door. He never left without telling her that he was leaving, let alone go anywhere without his cell phone. She tried to remember if he had anything to do this week, but she couldn’t remember. Her mind was so focused on telling Safaree that she was in love with him that she couldn’t think about anything or anyone else. She had been sitting in her love seat in the living room waiting for him to come home for almost 4 hours. She was getting a little sleepy and decided that maybe if she took a nap, when she woke up he would be home.

Safaree was downstairs in the basement trying to finish working on the Entertainment system him and Nicki had bought a couple months back. She had been begging him to put it together since she didn’t want to hire someone to come do it for her. He hated putting things together mechanically and hated reading directions, which made everything, take longer and made it a lot harder. The only thing he had to do was mount the Screen, connect the speakers, hook up the projector and make sure the seats were in good shape. When he woke up he was on his way to Nicki’s room and heard her on the phone with Candi. He was going to ask her if she was hungry but he knew she would be on the phone for hours so he left her alone. He went out to the supermarket to re-stock the house and came back home. When he came back he made him a sandwich and headed downstairs to work on the entertainment system.

“It’s hot as hell in this bitch, why she always gotta have the heat on fucking cremate” SB said wiping the sweat from his head. He was finished working and couldn’t wait to show Nicki.

He turned off the lights and headed up stairs. When he got upstairs he walked into the living room and saw Nicki passed out in her love seat. “Damn she aint even come check on a nigga”, Sb said.  He shook his head and walked upstairs to his room to shower.

Meanwhile, Nicki woke up, looked around and still saw no SB. “Where the hell could his ass be”. She got up, went into the kitchen, grabbed water and went into her room. Because the house was so big, she didn’t hear SB taking a shower in his room and didn’t bother to check because she thought he wasn’t home still. She grabbed her phone and decided to call Lauren and tell her the good news since she didn’t answer earlier.

Lauren: Hey Nick Nac

Nicki: Hey babe! Guess what I have good news!

Lauren: What? What is it?

Nicki: Im in love with Safaree!

Lauren: What????

Nicki: I know! Im gonna tell him as soon as he gets home.

Safaree got out of the shower and wrapped the towel around his waist. and looked around for his phone. He remembered he left it by the door and wet to retrieve it. He looked over at the love seat and saw that Nicki had gotten up.

Lauren: No..Wait Nicki theres something I have to tell you I ……….

Just then Lauren was cut off. “Nicki!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” Safaree screamed.

Nicki: Lauren ima have to call you back My MAN is Home!! Love you bye.

With that she hung up went to the top of the steps.

“Yes faree” She looked at the bottom of the steps and saw that he only had a towel and became very confused.

“I made reservations for us to go have dinner tonight because I know neither one of us doesn’t feel like cooking so get dressed” Sb said.

“Wait where were you all day? And why didn’t you take your phone? And why do you only have a towel on if you just came in the house?” Nicki was talking a mile a minute.

“Whoaa whoa whoa, slow down. I haven’t gone anywhere Nic. I didn’t take my phone cause I was here in the house, and I have a towel on because I just got out of the shower.”

“You couldn’t have been in the house because I checked everywhere.” Nicki was confused as shit.

“You couldn’t have checked everywhere, because I was in the basement Nic” SB was giggling, because he knows she probably was flipping out thinking that he left without letting her know.

“The BASEMENT! What the fuck. Why didn’t I think of that?”

Sb just shook his head and started heading up the stairs into his room. “I don’t know Nicki but get dressed please we have to go, I’m starving”

“But wait Faree I have to tell you something”

“Good because I have to tell you something to, so go get dressed and we’ll talk at dinner. PLEASE” Sb went into his room and closed the door. Nicki had never been so excited to tell someone something in her life.

 She showered and got dressed within 1 hour and 30 min. She kept everything light with a pantsuit, some black Giuseppe heels and her natural hair straight. She walked down stairs and didn’t see Safaree. “ This nigga rushing me and he aint even ready”. SB came in the house and saw Nicki fixing her jacket. “Damn” he mumbled. “Uh Uhm you ready Nicki?” Sb asked.

“Yes I ready. What were you doing outside?” Nicki asked.

“I was warming up the car because I know you don’t like to get into cold cars. You look Beautiful Nicki.”

“Thank you Handome”

He grabbed her hand and they were out the door. When they got to the restaurant, they were seated in a closed off V.I.P area. Nicki wasn’t really hungry so she ordered a chicken Caesar salad, and SB ordered the 18 Rack Rib Meal.  When they were done eating SB spoke up.

“So Nicki, I have been thinking and I have something that I want to tell you. I don’t know how you’re going to react but I need to get this off my chest.”

Nicki sat up in her chair and placed her hand on the table. “Ok faree, I have something that I need to tell you too, but you go first.”

Safaree grabbed her hand and took a deep breath.

“Nicki I can’t hide these feelings that I have for you no more. I have been holding them in for years and it’s been killing. I never thought that I would be sitting here in front of you telling you that I’m in love you, but it’s real. Sitting back I have seen you go through hell and back with your family, your friends and your relationships and I have been there every step of the way. When you were in these shit ass relationships it was hurting my heart to see you with someone else and you be not happy. But I want to make you happy. I want to be there for you all the time like a man would for his woman. I need you in my life as mine. I would treat you like no man has ever treated you. My love for you is deep and it’s taking over everything in me. I don’t think I’ll be able to handle seeing you with another man other than me. I love you with all my heart and that will never change weather you feel the same or not.”

By the end of Safaree’s speech Nicki’s eyes were filled with tears. He pulled Nicki up and sat her on his lap. He wiped her tears and kissed her on her cheek. “Don’t cry Nic, I didn’t mean to upset you I was just trying to tell you how I was feeling.”

Nicki looked up into SB’s eyes and grabbed the sides of his face. She gave him a nice soft kiss and pulled back. SB didn’t know what was going through her head. He was getting ready to ask her if she was ok until she spoke.

“You know Safaree, when I was with drake, the only person I thought about was you. When I woke up, when I went to sleep even when I was out with him I was always thinking; I can’t wait to get home to SB. I never understood it until today. I can’t believe that the man that I have always wanted was always right in front of me and I was ignoring it.  But I guess I had to let go of everything that was blocking my heart from falling in love with you. I don’t want to ignore it anymore Safaree, I need you. I love you and I want to be yours. I want to be able to make you happy the way you make me happy. I want us to have a healthy relationship for as long as God allows us to. I don’t want another day to go by and we not be together.”

Safaree couldn’t believe what he was hearing. Was she actually telling him that she was I love with him? He was in awe. The woman that he loved for so many years was finally admitting she loved him.

He kissed her and grabbed her hand.

“Lets get out of here.” Sb said, leaving the money on the table and walking out the valet.

When they pulled up to the house SB walked around to Nicki’s side of the car and helped her out. When they got into the house Nicki turned around to face SB.

“I don’t want anything to happen between us. I can’t take not having you in my life at all. What happens if we don’t work out faree, then what?”

“Listen to me, you will not have to worry about me NOT being in your life, I will never leave you, relationship or not. As for us not working out we will work, and any problems that we have we will keep between us and work them out together. I’m not losing you and you’re not going to lose me. You understand?” SB asked.

She nodded her head yes. “Is there anything you want to say?”

She moved closer to him and placed her hands on his chest. He wrapped his arms around her waist and looked down at her. “Yes. There is something that I want you to do.” She said.

“Just tell me what it is and if it’s in my power ill make it happen.

She closed her eyes against his intense stare.

“Make love to me”

Before the request left her lips she was swept off of her feet and being carried upstairs to her bedroom. She didn’t realize that she was holding her breathe until she felt the constriction across her chest. She was shaking from head to toe and there was nothing that Nicki could do about it. She tightened her grip around Safaree’s neck as he carried her to the bedroom. Before she even had time to blink she found herself sprawled out in the middle of her bed.

Her gaze met Safaree’s as he pulled his shirt up over his head, then unsnapping his jeans, pushing them and his briefs off in one swift motion. Her pulse quickened and her breathing became shallow as her gaze lowered to his muscular thighs, and she found she couldn’t look away from his enormous erection. But she did close her eyes when a rush of wetness left her panting like she just finished a 100 mile race. Safaree was completely naked and now it was Nicki’s turn. He grabbed her hands and helped her stand on her feet. He removed her blazer and her shirt that she had on underneath. He then began unbuttoning her pants and pulled them down as she stepped out of them, leaving her standing in front of him in only her black lace bra and matching thong. He licked his lips as he reached behind her and unhooked her bra releasing her perfectly plump breasts. He took his hands and massaged each one watching Nicki bite her bottom lip. He picked her up and laid her back on the bed resting between her legs. He moved to her neck and began placing soft sensual kisses along her jawline down to her chest. When he got to her breast he took one into his mouth and began sucking on it like no one has ever did before. While he was showing her breasts attention he slowly slid his hands into her thong and immediately was met with wetness. He placed his finger on her clit and started to move in a circular motion making Nicki clentch the sheets.

“Safaree please don’t tease meee, I need you!” Nicki moaned.

He removed his hands from her center and pulled her thongs off. His kissed her stomach and didn’t waste any time making his way to her wet pussy. She never felt anything like this before. Safaree was licking her pussy like he was never going to have it again.

“Fareeeee i-i-cant-hol-hold onnnn much longer.” Nicki reached down, grabbed Safaree’s hand and squeezed it. He flicked his tongue against her clit faster and within minutes Nicki’s juices took over his whole face.

“I don’t think I’ve ever tasted anything so good in my life”, SB said making his way back up to Nicki.

“I don’t think I’ve ever felt anything that good in my life” Nicki smiled.

He placed a kiss on her lips and looked her in her eyes. “ Don’t be so sure about that baby” and with that said SB pushed his hard dick into her tight wet pussy.

“Damn you tight”

Nicki couldn’t speak. When SB stuck his dick inside of her it sent her over the edge. She wrapped her legs around his back and pushed him deeper.

“Faster baby” Nicki moaned. SB picked up the pace and began thrusting fast and deep inside of her.

“Ooooh myyyy godddddd it feels so good” SB was giving Nicki all of him and she loved every minute of it.

She pushed him off of her and threw him down on the bed. “Damn Nick you strong when you horny huh?” Nicki climbed on top of him and slid down slowly on his long hard dick. “Mmmmmmmm”  Nicki said as she threw her head back and began riding him slowly.

“Oh Shit”, SB was about to burst. She was so tight around him and he didn’t know how much longer he could last. He grabbed her ass with both his hands and began to pump inside of her.

”You like that baby” Sb asked Nicki as he watched her ride him; she looked so sexy bouncing up and down. Safaree was in pure ecstasy.

“Mhhmmm I –i-I love it ba-babyyy” SB could barely understand what she was saying but he knew it felt good. He took his thumb and began massaging her clit while she rode him. She looked down at him, and the moans that escaped her mouth were music to his ears. 

  He flipped her over onto her back and took over. He could tell she was about to reach her climax and he wasn’t far behind.

“Baby im about to cummm.... I can’t hold onnn anyy longer it feels too g…….” before she could finish her orgasm took over her whole body. “Oh yessss” Safaree’s orgasm came right behind hers.

He buried his face in her neck and kissed each side. He looked up into her eyes and couldn’t believe what just happened. He passionately kissed her as he pulled his dick out.

“That was fucking amazing Safaree; I didn’t know you were working with all of that”. Nicki said breathlessly

“Nicki ya pussy was so tight, I’m surprised I lasted for as long as I did”

“My pussy stay tight nigga” Nicki and Safaree laughed at her comment. Nicki hadn’t had sex in a long time and the last time she did she told herself the next time she had sex it would be with the person she was in Love with. She was definitely in love with Safaree.

“So how are we going to tell everybody?” Nicki asked.

“It’s up to you baby, however you want to tell everybody is what I’ll go with.”

“Well Candi already knows. I was trying to tell Lauren but I hung up when you called me.”

“Well I think first we should tell your parents, and whatever happens after that, we’ll just let fall into place.” 

SB was just so happy that he didn’t even care about how everyone else would find out. He had made love to his woman and nothing else mattered but her.

“Ok”

“Nicki?”

“Yes Faree?”

“I love you”

“I love you too baby” Nicki said as she turned and faced him and planted a soft kiss on his lips. 

She laid her head on his chest as he wrapped his hands around her waist. She was happier than she had been in a long time and Safaree was the one who made sure he kept a smile on her face. Her once best friend was now her man, and she was going to have no problem in letting the world know that she was his and he was hers. 

So what you guys think...?? Yall had me SCREECHINGGG at the comments yall left earlier. But imma post again tomorrow if i like the feed back I get. so COMMENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Chapter 3- My Minds Made Up/ Part 1

Buzz, buzz, buzz, buzzzzzz. Nicki’s phone had been going off for the past 5 minutes and it was really starting to irritate her. It woke her up out of her sleep and she was trying to ignore it but it never seemed to stop. “who the fuck is it and why won’t they get the hint” she mumbled to herself. She reached over, grabbed her phone and without looking answered.

“Hello?” Nicki said.

“Nicki?” It was a familiar voice but she wasn’t quite sure.

“Drake? ” Nicki said confused hoping it wasn't who she thought it was.

“Please Nicki just hear me out. I’m sorry that I hurt you; I didn't think about what I was doing. I love and I need you and I would never hurt you intentionally baby.”

Nicki was so struck. She couldn’t believe this nigga was really calling asking for her back. She laughed out of confusion and took a deep breath.

“Drake, I don’t think you understand that not only did you hurt me physically but also emotionally. You accused me of something that I was never doing, and you didn’t even check on me after you pushed me the fuck down. Now, maybe it’s just me, but that’s the most disrespectful shit I have ever encountered and it was intentional.” Nicki was heated at this point. “Then you have the audacity to call me apologizing asking for me back?? It doesn’t work like that. So just do me a favor and stay the fuck out of my life.”

“Who the hell do you think you’re talking to?” Drake said.

“Excuse me?”

“Who the hell do you think you’re talking too?” He repeated, “Have you lost your mind? You have no right to talk to me that way, I gave you every fucking thing and you think we’re just going to be over like that? I fucking own you! If it wasn’t for me you would still be stuck on that other nigga that fucked you over so it really shouldn’t be me calling and apologizing it should be YOU. I should have pushed you a little harder and maybe that table would have knocked some sense into you”

Nicki could not believe what she was hearing. He was really starting to turn into a lunatic. She hung up the phone, turned it on silent and placed it back on her night stand. Tomorrow she would have SB change her number so she wouldn’t have to deal with the insanity from Drake if he continued to call. She laid down and tried to fall back to sleep but the thoughts that were circulating through her mind wouldn’t let her. She was afraid that Drake would try to hurt her again. At this point she wasn’t sure what he was capable of and honestly she didn’t want to find out. She rolled over and looked at the clock that read 3:08 a.m. and this was always around the time when SB got up to use the bathroom. She didn’t feel comfortable sleeping by herself just yet and that’s probably why it was hard for her to fall asleep. SB had decided that it was best that they sleep in their own rooms from now on until they figured out where they stood with each other. He felt like them sleeping in the same bed confused things and made it difficult for her to get her emotions together.

She got out of the bed and headed down the hall to Safaree’s room. She didn’t want to sleep alone and felt like SB would understand. She knocked on his door but didn’t get an answer. She opened the door and walked over to his bed slowly. She looked at him spread out over the whole bed and put her hands on her hips.

“Why this nigga gotta be all over the damn bed like this?”

She found a spot on the other side that was just enough space for her to get in the bed and lay down. She pulled the cover up and crawled in trying not to wake SB.  She covered herself up, and moved back to where her leg was touching his. She never understood why she did that but she just always had to have some sort of skin to skin contact with him if they were in the same bed. She was soon fast asleep.

SB woke up a couple minutes later to a swift of cold air hitting his chest. He realized the covers were all pulled over to the other side of his bed and knew Nicki was in his bed. “She so damn stingy” he shook his head and headed to the bathroom. When he came back out Nicki was lying in the middle of the bed with her feet on his side of the bed. He scooped her up in his arms and carried her to her bed. He placed her in the bed and started walking towards the door.

“Faree don’t leave me please!”

“Nic go back to sleep, you’ll be ok, I’m just down the hall”

“No it’s not the same please! I’m scared to be alone”

“What are you afraid of?” SB asked?

Nicki knew she should have told him about the phone call she received earlier but she didn’t want to get him worked up or yell at her for answering the phone.

“Idk, I just don’t want to be alone, can you please come lay with me”

“Ok Nicki, I just want you comfortable”

“Thank you” Nicki said smiling

SB climbed in the bed and they both fell fast asleep.

2 weeks Later……

Nicki had been doing some hard thinking about the conversation her and SB had. But she needed some more advice from someone who could understand what she was going through, so she decided to call Lauren. She called but she didn’t get no answer so she called Candi.

Candi: Hey Doll!!!!!!

Nicki: Hey babe, whatcha doinnnnng?

Candi: Nothing just sitting here tryna fix my hair, what you up too diva?? I haven't heard from you since you changed your number.

Nicki: I know, and nothing much, just been relaxing and getting ready for the next album. I haven’t talked to you in a while so I thought that I should fill you in.

Candi: fill me in on what? Spill!!!!!!

Every time Nicki called Candi and told her she had to “fill her in” it was always something serious. Nicki took a deep breath and told Candi about the incident with Drake in the kitchen and how SB almost killed him. She told her about what SB said to her when he heard her crying and she also told her about the phone call she received from him the other night.

Candi: Seriously Nic you know if you want his ass duffed we can call up the fucking crew and they will leave his ass lifeless in the middle of Queens.

Nicki: I think SB took care of it already. And you know if we call them Muthafuckas Drake will be dead within seconds and I don’t want to be the cause of someone’s death.

Candi: Oh, so its ok for him to almost be the cause of your death but you can’t return the favor? really Nicki? Come on that ain’t fair.

Nicki: You are too much. But I’m not done there’s something else I need to tell you.

Candi: Awe shit! What else did Drakes gazelle looking ass do.?

Nicki: It’s not about him silly. It’s about SB.

Candi: Ok? What about him.

Nicki: we kind of….uhm….had a little kissing session a couple of weeks ago after the incident.

Candi: KISSING SESSION??? With SB? Wait are we talking about the same SB? Or did you meet someone else with the same name?

Nicki: Yes we are talking about SB! My Hype man and my Best friend.

Candi: Woahhhhhh? Well how was it.?

Nicki suddenly got hit with a burst of happiness when Candi asked her that question.

Nicki: I loved it. It wasn’t that long though because he pulled away saying that I was confused and that he didn’t want to take advantage of me at such a vulnerable time so he stopped.

Candi: Now I know we not talking about the same SB. Because the SB I know would have jumped all in that pussy. You know that nigga a man whore! Not to mention him being in love with you.

Nicki: CANDI SHUT UP!!! And wait, wait? What you mean in love with me?

Candi: Nicki if you haven’t noticed by now that SB is in love with you then you must have been in the same retarded ass class that Rocsi (106&Park) was in. The way he looks at you, the way he protects you, the way he treats you and the things he buys you are not normal things you do for a “Best friend”. Lauren and I are his best friends too and while you get treated like the damn queen  we get treated like peasants when we’re all together.

Nicki: I just thought that was because he’s around me more than he is with you guys. I never thought It was more than that. But if you and Lauren knew how come no one told me?

Candi: because you’re rude ass would have laughed and told us to sit our asses down.

Nicki: Then how come he never told me how he felt?

Candi: Because he was afraid you wouldn’t look at him the same and he didn’t want to be hurt if you didn’t. He values your friendship more than anything, so he let it go. We told him that if it got to the point where he couldn’t hide his feelings anymore and it felt like his feelings were becoming stronger then he should tell you.

Nicki: Wait? Yawl ugly asses were having conversations about me with him about this?

Candi: YES! He is me and Laurens best friend too, and he needed someone to talk to so he came to us and we told him to do what he thought was best.

Nicki: So what do you think I should do?

Candi: Imma tell you the same thing me and Ren (Lauren) told SB. Do what you feel is best. I know you love him and I know he loves you. If you feel like you and his friendship can go further than “best friends” then give it a shot. Just keep in mind it might never be the same between the two of you if it doesn’t work.

Nicki: and that’s what I’m afraid of Cand. I don’t want to lose him in any way at all. I would go crazy and lose my mind.

Candi: Answer me these questions. Do you love him?

Nicki: Yes! Of course.

Candi: Who’s the first person you think about when you wake up?

Nicki: Safaree

Candi: Whenever yur feeling sad and down, who cheers you up?

Nicki: Safaree

Candi: When your bitching and nagging and everyone leaves, who stays behind to make sure your alright?

Nicki: Safaree!! Ok! I get it!

Candi: I’m not done. Last question; Are you in love with him?

Nicki went silent, and there was a long pause.

Candi: Hello????

Nicki: I’m here.

Candi: well………..

Nicki: I don’t know Candi.

Candi: well I want you to sit and think about that first and then get back to me. When you figure out your answer that should tell you whether to be with the man you love or keep it as “best friends”, I have to go, but let me know what you come up with.

Nicki: ok Thanks for everything. I love you

Candi: Love you too

Nicki put her phone down and sat there staring at the bed, thinking about what Candi asked her. “Are you in Love with Safaree” , is all that played back in her head. But Candi was right. Whenever she woke up he was the first one on her mind and the last one when she fell asleep, even when she was dating someone. Whenever she was down and sad SB was right there to pick her up. When she needed to talk she would go to him. Whenever she was in a situation he made sure she didn’t have to go through it alone. He loved her and didn’t have a problem with showing it. He never disrespected her or made her feel uncomfortable in any situation. He would lay down his life for her and she would do the same for him.  She couldn’t see herself with anyone else, which is why her past relationships probably never worked out. But now she knew why. Not only did she love Safaree but she was IN love with him, and didn’t want another second to go by without him knowing.

Nicki picked up her phone and texted Candi:

NickiMouse: IM IN LOVE WITH SAFAREE!!

Candi heard her phone buzz and saw she had a text from Nicki. She smiled.

RideOrDie: It’s about time. Now you know what you have to do right?

NickiMouse: Yes!

RideOrDie: THEN GO GET YOUR MAN!

NickiMouse: ;) *kisses*

Nicki jumped up and ran down the hall to SB’s room, but he wasn’t there. She ran down the steps into the living room and kitchen but still no SB. “Where the hell is he”? 

TO BE CONTINUED................................................................

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Chapter 2- Its all up to You

I just wanna thank each and everyone of you who takes the time out and reads my story. But I need a lil help. Do you guys want me to post everyday, every other day or occasionally. I dont really know exactly how many people are reading but i know that  people are reading. Please fel free to give suggestions and ideas if you want....(doesnt mean ill use them but dont hurt to try)...So comment and let me know what you think and what you want me to do. * DOES THE HILL TOE OFF THIS BITCH*




It was now 9 o'clock a.m , and Safaree knew that Nicki was going to wake up soon. She had been up with him talking and crying out everything that she felt she needed to let go. He was happy that she finally told him everything that had him wondering and worrying about what was going on with her. 
Safaree looked down at Nicki sleeping comfortably in his arms. It felt natural to him, like thats where she always belonged, but he pushed the thought immediately to the back of his mind. He and Nicki would never work out. She didn't see him like that and he wasn't sure if she ever would. He slowly glided the back of his hand down her cheek. He kissed her lightly on her forehead and she began to stir. He realized that he couldn't have her wake up yet because he hadn't planned their day out yet. Safaree gently moved Nicki on to the bed, and quietly got up and headed towards the bathroom. When he got to the bathroom he remembered that Nicki was still sleeping and the sound of the water flushing or coming on in the sink or shower, would possibly wake her from her slumber. So Safaree decided to go to his room and get his self ready in there. 
When he was done getting himself together he began to make his way to the kitchen to prepare breakfast for the two of them. He knew Nicki didn't want anything big to eat so he kept it light with egg whites, turkey bacon, pancakes and orange juice. 


Nicki woke up and looked at the time that said 11:04 a.m. She really didn't think that she was going to be asleep that long, but once she got into Safaree's arms it was a wrap. She had encountered the best sleep last night and it really felt good since she hadn't been sleeping well for the past couple of weeks. She looked to her side and saw that the spot where Safaree was sleeping in was empty. She noticed a piece of paper laying on his pillow and picked it up. It read :
   
   " Good-morning Beautiful, get yourself together and come downstairs for breakfast. I have a nice relaxing day planned for you and I so don't keep me waiting too long lol. -Faree "


She smiled at the note and placed it back onto the pillow. She walked over to her dresser and pulled out a thong and bra set  and sat it on the bed. She grabbed her robe and headed into the bathroom to do her daily duties. After her shower she came out the bathroom and went into her closet and picked out a pink pair of sweat pants, a white tee shirt and a black hoodie. She figured since she was staying in the house there was really no need to get dressed up. 
As she finished getting dressed she began to smell the food the Safaree had prepared for them to eat. She didn't notice how hungry she was until the smell of food hit her nose. She put on her pink plush socks and headed downstairs.
When she got to the kitchen she saw SB putting the food on the plates. As she watched him from behind she noticed how helpful, supportive and caring he was being to her. She began to wonder what it would be like if she was his woman. She chuckled at the thought of being "SB's Woman" and walked towards him. 


"hey there" nicki said softly. SB turned around at the sound of her voice and spoke up.
"well someone's finally awake. How did you sleep last night?" he asked. 
"I slept really well actually, i haven't slept like that in idk how long" Nicki said.
"Well Im glad you slept good. Are you hungry?" 
"YES!!!!!!, very" nicki said wide eyed and smiling. 
"Well thats why i made you breakfast" safaree said laughing.


They sat down and ate their breakfast while exchanging small talk. When they were done they put the dishes in the sink and went into the living so SB could tell Nic what they were going to do. 

"so what are we doing today SB, I hope its not too much, cause I just wanna kinda relax" Nicki said.
"Chill out Nic i promise you we will not do too much, but yu will be relaxed and have fun"
Nicki smiled at him trying so hard to get her to feel better, and it was already working. 


"So this is what we're going to do" SB said, looking at Nicki dead in her eyes. " I don't have much for us to do only cause we are in the house, but i want you relaxed and comfortable, so i figured we could just watch movies ,talk and i thought that later I could give you a body massage" Nicki looked at him side ways when he said that last part. 


"A what??" Nicki said. 
"A Body Massage. I mean i dont want you to feel uncomfortable or anything I just thought that it would help you relax more. I wont do it if your not comfortable Nic." 
" No no no no no im not going to be uncomfortable, I just didn't know that you knew how to give massages, but I would love one"
Safaree felt  good. He really wanted to give her a massage cause he knew that she really really needed it and it would make her feel a whole lot better.
"Good cause i wanna make you feel good today" 


Nick and Safaree sat in the theater watching Obsessed. Safaree was laying on his back and Nicki was laying on his chest really into the movie, like she never seen it before, but this was her 4th time seeing it.  He was getting sleepy but didn't want to get tired because they still had 2 more movies, dinner and then her massage. 


The movie was finally over but Safaree realized that Nicki had fell asleep. He carefully picked her up and carried her to her room. He placed her in the bed and pulled the blanket over her and started to walk out. He closed the door and leaned against it just wondering how any man could just let something so precious go. He couldn't understand why someone would want to see her hurt, unhappy and in pain. Nicki was more than special to him. He loved her with everything in him and wished he could show her. 
Safaree had feelings for Nic that he knew went way beyond any "friendship". The only thing holding him back from releasing these feelings was the unsurity of if Nicki felt the same way. On top of that she had been having bad relationship after bad relationship and it really was not healthy. Before the Relationship she had with Drake, Nicki had been in a serious relationship with a dude named Lieme. This had been the first time in a while since he had seen nicki happy. She loved Lieme and she THOUGHT that he loved her back. Nicki had found out 2 days after their 1 year anniversary that he had a wife, 2 sons, and a daughter on the way. She was devestated. She wanted to kill everybody. No one could talk to her without her screaming and going off. She would barely talk to SB, but he would never turn away and leave her alone. It took him about 2 months to be able to finally get her back up on her feet. It killed him to see her like that. When she was just starting to do better she had begun finding close friendship with Drake. Which led SB back down the same road he had just paved. He wanted to hold her more, kiss her and tell her how much he loved her and would never cause her any harm. But to him it wasn't that easy. He definately didn't want to let these feelings out after what she had been going through for the past couple of weeks but he wanted to make her feel good. 
Safaree shook his head and went into his room. He figured he'd take a nap since Nicki was taking one, and when they woke up and would cook and finish the night. 


"Faree? Faree? FAREE??????!!!!!!!!!!!!" Nicki screamed.


SB shot up and look around confused.
"What? Whats wrong? Whats going on? Are you hurt? Are you alright?" SB was talking a mile a minute, while Nic was standing there bent over laughing.
"Im fine SB calm down"
"Then why were yu screaming"
"Because you wouldn't wake up when I called you the first 68 times silly"
SB sat down on the bed and looked at Nicki. She was beautiful, even when she had just woke up.
"Why didn't you wake me up when i fell asleep?" Nicki asked.
"Because you needed your rest and you were tired so i let yu sleep."
"Oh. Well thank you but uhmmm........Faree?"
"Yeah?"
"Im hungry"
"Ok, ill go make dinner and you just relax and ill call you when its done ok?"
"ok"


After dinner they watched another movie and played a bowling game on his Wii. The game was over real soon because Nicki was losing and accused SB of cheating so she quit. He decided that now he could give her a massage because even know they had taken a nap she would be sleepy again really soon. 


"Are yo ready for your massage Nicki?" 
"Yes im ready"
"Ok, im going to get the stuff so you go and undress and ill meet you on your massage table"


Nicki did as she was told and took off all of her clothes and layed on her massage table. She grabbed her towel and flung it onto her back. SB walked in with the oil and was ready to start.


"Are you ready Nic?"
"Yes"
Safaree walked to the table and poured oil onto her back. He gently rubbed it over her shoulders and worked his way down her back.
"Mmmmmmm" Nicki moaned.
"You ok?"
"Yes, that feels good"
He moved down to her legs and began massaging her ankles and her calfs. As her worked his way up to her thigh he noticed how soft her skin was. he could do this all day and not get tired. He looked down and realized that he was enjoying this massage more than she was because his dick was at FULL ATTENTION. He decided to go back up to her back. As he massaged her body he accidently knocked the oil over. When he went to bend down to pick it up he mistakingly pulled the towel off of her exposing her volumptious backside. She snapped her head around quick as he put the towel back onto her back. She grabbed the towel and wrapped it around her whole body as she sat up on the table.


"Im sorry Nic i didn't mean to do that, i bent down to pick up the oil and........." 
"Shhhhhh" nicki said, "its alright, it was a mistake i get it"
Nicki looked down and noticed his dick was bulging through his pants.
"I don't think that he thought it was a mistake" nicki said pointing to his zipper.
SB look down and back up at Nicki.  They were staring at each other hard and both had a serious look on their face. He didn't know what to say. He began to feel awkward so he spoke up.


"Uhmm Im going to go wash my hands and put on another movie"
"Why?"
"I don't want you to feel anymore uncomfortable than what you already are" SB said as he began to walk towards the door.
"Who said I was uncomfortable?" Nicki said giving him a little smirk. " I happen to enjoy the massage you were given me. Your hands felt good." SB thought that she would have ran out after what she just saw but she wasn't and he was confused.  "Come here Safaree"
He slowly walked over to her and stood in front of her. 
"Thank you for everything you have been doing for me. Cooking, the quality time, the attention you have been given me , i really appreciate it" Nicki said as she put her head down.
"Nicki you dont have to thank me, its my job. I Love you and you are my bestfriend I would do this everyday if I had to, to make sure your happy. I dont want to see you any other way but happy, and if i have to give you attention every second of everyday then you can count on me to give it to you." He put his hand under her chin and lifted her head up and looked her in the eyes. 
" You hear me? Im going to make sure your happy" SB said.
Nicki nodded her head yes slowly and gave a small smile. SB's hand moved to her cheek and rubbed it softly. Nicki grabbed his hand and bought it down to her heart. SB slowly moved in towards her face and let his lips collide with hers. Nicki felt a sudden tingle move throughout her body when this happened. They deepened the kiss and both felt like they were somewhere else. Nicki had never felt this way before whenever she kissed someone. It felt like she knew exactly what she needed and when he kissed her he gave it to her. She let the towel drop onto the table as the sensual kiss continued. SB let his hands roam from her back down to her ass. Nicki felt SB's erection against her bare thigh and became 10x more horny that she already was. SB pulled away from the kiss and stepped back. He didn't want to go there with Nicki right now. He felt like she was still hurting and just doing this with him because she was hurt. To him it was more than that. If he were to take that step with Nicki he wouldn't be able to turn back. He loved her and respected her enough to not go ahead and take advantage of what she was offering. If it was to happen he wanted it to happen right, not out of the fact that she was hurt and needed it for the moment. 
"Why'd you stop Safaree?" Nicki said looking confused?
"Because Nic, I know your still hurting and Im not going to take advantage of you"
"Take advantage?? How?
"Your confused, if you have sex with me right now when we're done you probably won't feel any better than what yu do now emotionally. I dont want that. If you have sex with me I will not be able to just go back to the way things were. Im going to want you all to myself. I dnt want to have to make you feel like you have to jump back into a relationship. I want you to do what you feel is best for you. And i don't think that sex with me is the best thing right now. Now I dont know how you feel about me but i know how i feel about you, and i dont want you doing something that your going to regret"
"I understand" Nicki said softly.
"Now if you feel like there can be something between us, i want us to talk about it first. I want to know that we are 100% sure that its what we want, only because I dont want either one of us going into something expecting the most and come out with the least."
"Ok faree, Im sorry" Nicki said grabbing his hand and holding it.
"You have nothing to be sorry about, i just want you to think about what you want and the out come of it to be happiness" 
Nicki was glad that he stopped because honestly if he didnt she probably would have felt worse than what she was already feeling. She loved Safaree but she had to sit and think about everything that he had just spoke to her. She understood everything that he said and was going to do exactly what she knew she had to do. She was going to figure out what she wanted. No matter how long, or no matter what choice she decided to make ,she knew SB was always going to be there for her. 
"you ok?, SB asked
"Yes im fine" SB helped Nicki off of the table and pulled her into a hug.
"I love you Faree"
"I love you too Nicki. No matter what."

As they stood there holding on to each other Nicki knew what she had to do. She had to figure out what she wanted. Did she want to be lonely and never let another man into her life because of the past? Or did she want to be happy like she know she could, with a man that has been there since the beginning and would never let harm come her way?    
The decision was up to her.